"This time last year".....
That phrase has popped into my head MANY, MANY times in the last year. You see, it was actually about this time last year (give or take about a week) that I was taking a leap of faith and stepping out and doing what God told me to do.
I left my job of almost 6 years to pursue a career that God set me up for. I left my job of almost 6 years without even having another lined up. I left my job of almost 6 years knowing it was my family's only form of income at the time. I left my job of almost 6 years, because GOD TOLD ME TO. It was exactly what he wanted me to do, to break me, fix me, mold me, humble me, bless me, LOVE me, guide me, show me grace...I could go on and on and on....because no matter how many times I say "I left my job of almost 6 years", that phrase was irrelevant to God, which made it irrelevant to me. He promised me that He knew where I was going. He was going to prosper me, not harm me, and would give me a hope AND A FUTURE in Jeremiah 29:11 "11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
That very verse has been my comfort for the last year.
Ok so I quit my job of almost 6 years to start my career in nursing. I began nursing school on January 5, 2012. Seriously, folks, nursing school has been the single most challenging thing, next to parenting, that I have EVER, EVER done in my life.
I love that I can say I am almost done, I love that I can say that I love what I am doing. I love that God loved me enough to entrust me with this privilege to become a nurse.
In this last year, my financial situation has gone from OMGsh what are we going to do....to "I am leaning on you Lord"... to "Thank you Lord for my job (in a hospital I might add, a hospital that I LOVE working for) and has now progressed to "Lord I am unworthy of where you have brought this family to, but thank you for entrusting me/us with what you have.
In this last year I have found more time (where the heck it came from I don't know, b/c if I have not mentioned it yet, nursing school affords you NO LIFE) for my kids. I have a daughter learning to become a dancer and growing to be a good little woman and trying her hardest in school and another who is perfecting her music skills, maintaining good grades, turning into a young woman and keeping up with her sports. We play more games, watch more movies and do more girly things than we ever did.
In the last year (yes I started another sentence with that) I have learned to appreciate my marriage more. I love it, I hate it, I adore it, I laugh at it and I NEED it more that I ever had before. My husband supports me in every way possible that he can and is my biggest advocate in this journey we began a little over a year ago today, when I .... you guessed it left my job of almost 6 years.
People ask me how I do it, did it, am doing it, and will do it and people I have one answer I AM NOT DOING, my God is! I could not do any of this without the grace and love of my Heavenly daddy.
I have knitted some of the closest friendships I have ever had in my life. These ladies are with me in the "trenches of nursing school" and for that I am ever grateful and I am prtty sure they are part of the reason I still have my hair and it is not gray. hahahahaha A girl needs her girlfriends!
This time last year I didn't have a clue where I would be a year later. I didn't have any idea that God would prosper me the way He has. I didn't have a clue that I would have so many supporters, friends, prayer partners, family members, and church family that would pray for me, with me and actually care what I was doing.
This time last year....oh friends I could go on and on and on...but you people know the story....you read my Facebook, you see my pictures and my posts and you know the blessings I have had...in the last year.
I cannot stress enough that leaping out in faith is one of the hardest things I have ever done and when/if I have to do it again I will honestly be as hesitant as I was because I am human and I have a flesh and the devil will try to convince me to do otherwise.
I am almost done this nursing journey and by the Grace of God I will finish it this year. I will DO IT!
So here's to a year of no job, trying not to worry about money, bed baths, giving meds, starting IVs, wiping butts, working overnights. new friendships, wiping more butts, wearing a stethascope, sore feet, expensive shoes, no more heels and God's promises abundantly. Thank you Father! I love how much you love me and I am unworthy.
Night, night folks!
Until next time...
Friday, January 11, 2013
Monday, March 12, 2012
Wow....
Oftentimes I am imperfect....in fact... All the time I AM!
I search everyday for something I can do better or something I can change. Usually God reveals them to me thru someone or something. Well this week I didn't like his answer... So I did what every rebellious child does... I ignored it! I WAS RIGHT IN FEELING THE WAY I DID... Right!?
Let me back up and give you the background on this... I am going to be completely transparent... I have already admitted I am not perfect and God is not going to leave me alone until I am so...
I recently allowed a family member to offend me so deeply to the very core of my being. It consumed me that day and allllllllll that week. Every mention of that persons name, every situation spoken of that remotely had anything to do with them I rejected. They has "p'd" me off and more importantly hurt my feelings and made me cry. I felt rejected and angry at the same time. Now in the grand scheme of things I was able a few times throughout the week to step back and try and figure out why I was so upset by he situation... I mean... It was nothing personal... Right!?!? BAM!!!! Right there the devil, the enemy, would remind me it was personal... All my hard work and preparation was for nothing... Well not nothing... But most certainly was I rejected. .......UNTIL Sunday morning when I was sitting in church....
The pastor wasn't even speaking on this particular thing... But every word that came out of his mouth was saying the same thing. "You are loved, accepted and you are my child". (I know Lord, you love me, but I am lacking lovE and affection and acceptance in the places I want it Lord... But God... But God) I couldn't even finish the thought... He constantly over and over was telling me I was ALREADY accepted by he one one that matters, the one who loves unconditionally, my Father, my Savior, my Redeemer! The bitterness I had formulated all week long, thought about, cried about, complained about, was nothing but the devil's ploy to stop whatever God is doing in my life... Or perhaps the life of my children or a family member...because he lives
on this type of destructive behavior.
So I am sitting in church and God will not leave me alone. This same reminder is swimming around in my head and my heart over and over... I am sorry Pastor Josh... I did not hear all of your message... It's God's fault... Hahaha...j/k... No not really. Anyway... I did nothing... I didn't seek prayer on it... I didn't seek counsel... I didn't do much as or my Bible and read on the subject. I went on with my normal Sunday business.
Fast forward to tonight... It is 10pm... I am tired, stressed, overwhelmed, and emotional... And just need a minute with he One who I know can make me all better... I needed to feel loved and I knew just where to go... His word! then I needed to get to bed... I have to get at 445 in the am for loooong day at the hospital...
Well funny how sometimes God sorta has a sense of humor too... Read below my devotion for tonight...
"Accept the Right Thoughts
As Christians, we can't accept every thought that comes into our heads. Instead, we need to measure each thought against the standard of Scripture, like the verse above tells us to do.
Here's a practical example: If someone hurts your feelings, you shouldn't remain upset with them for days on end. That only gives Satan the opportunity to plant seeds of bitterness.
Instead, you need to reject negative thinking and refuse to let it drain you of your peace and joy.
You must turn to God and say, "Father, I need Your strength. By faith I choose to receive Your grace so that I may forgive those who mistreated or wronged me. I ask You to bless them and help me go on with my life. In Jesus' name, amen."
As our minds are renewed with God's Word, our thinking will change and line up with Scripture. Then, day by day, godly boundaries around our thoughts will be established and reinforced. These limits will not only keep out the deceptions of the enemy, but help you live a more enjoyable, godly life.
Prayer Starter: Lord, I only want to accept the right thoughts. Alert me when the enemy brings a bad thought my way so that I can take it captive into obedience to You."
Yep... Exactly... When I needed love... I was disciplined... Yet once I sat back and thought of it I was getting love. Corrective love! God was showing me that bitter thoughts and actually believed I am not loved and accepted is not exactly what I need. When I feel that way (rejection is something I struggle with... Secretly... From many people, places and situations) it is Him I need to seek acceptance and love from. Once I am secure in Him and who he wants me to be, my thoughts will change and the boundaries of the thoughts and all that goes on around me will be forever changed!
We are programmed as fleshly humans to feel rejection, lovelessness, and yearn for affection, and please do not allow me to paint myself as a rejected, unloved, and lonely person! Because I am not! I am blessed and I know it and cannot fathom why God would love me the way he does, but I will admit that there are certain things/people/situations in my life that I have these feelings about. I have to pray everyday to keep that bitterness away. Whatever the case may be.
I said all that to say that God loves me. Others love me... Whether they show it or not, doesn't matter.... At least it shouldn't. And even if they don't... Who cares!?!? That's something THEY need to deal with God on. We have loving Father/savior/guide that we need to anchor into everyday And he will guide our thoughts. Yes there will still be bitterness, rejection, and all that other nastiness, but as we draw and stay nearer it will get easier.
Here is the verse that goes with he devotion... I needed this, God gave me this, and he gave me this blog. He told to get up outta my seat Sunday morning and go write it... Maybe just for me... Maybe for someone elSe... I dunno... But I must say I feel much better and I feel like God is pleased
With me right now.
"We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:5 MSG)"
Again I say...I am IMPERFECT... everyday I try to improve at something, give something that only God can handle to Him, or continue one of these processes and this assignment He has tasked me with is HUGE and will likely take me a long time to do... But I know as long as I am working on it... He can be pleased.
Night night,
Brandy
I search everyday for something I can do better or something I can change. Usually God reveals them to me thru someone or something. Well this week I didn't like his answer... So I did what every rebellious child does... I ignored it! I WAS RIGHT IN FEELING THE WAY I DID... Right!?
Let me back up and give you the background on this... I am going to be completely transparent... I have already admitted I am not perfect and God is not going to leave me alone until I am so...
I recently allowed a family member to offend me so deeply to the very core of my being. It consumed me that day and allllllllll that week. Every mention of that persons name, every situation spoken of that remotely had anything to do with them I rejected. They has "p'd" me off and more importantly hurt my feelings and made me cry. I felt rejected and angry at the same time. Now in the grand scheme of things I was able a few times throughout the week to step back and try and figure out why I was so upset by he situation... I mean... It was nothing personal... Right!?!? BAM!!!! Right there the devil, the enemy, would remind me it was personal... All my hard work and preparation was for nothing... Well not nothing... But most certainly was I rejected. .......UNTIL Sunday morning when I was sitting in church....
The pastor wasn't even speaking on this particular thing... But every word that came out of his mouth was saying the same thing. "You are loved, accepted and you are my child". (I know Lord, you love me, but I am lacking lovE and affection and acceptance in the places I want it Lord... But God... But God) I couldn't even finish the thought... He constantly over and over was telling me I was ALREADY accepted by he one one that matters, the one who loves unconditionally, my Father, my Savior, my Redeemer! The bitterness I had formulated all week long, thought about, cried about, complained about, was nothing but the devil's ploy to stop whatever God is doing in my life... Or perhaps the life of my children or a family member...because he lives
on this type of destructive behavior.
So I am sitting in church and God will not leave me alone. This same reminder is swimming around in my head and my heart over and over... I am sorry Pastor Josh... I did not hear all of your message... It's God's fault... Hahaha...j/k... No not really. Anyway... I did nothing... I didn't seek prayer on it... I didn't seek counsel... I didn't do much as or my Bible and read on the subject. I went on with my normal Sunday business.
Fast forward to tonight... It is 10pm... I am tired, stressed, overwhelmed, and emotional... And just need a minute with he One who I know can make me all better... I needed to feel loved and I knew just where to go... His word! then I needed to get to bed... I have to get at 445 in the am for loooong day at the hospital...
Well funny how sometimes God sorta has a sense of humor too... Read below my devotion for tonight...
"Accept the Right Thoughts
As Christians, we can't accept every thought that comes into our heads. Instead, we need to measure each thought against the standard of Scripture, like the verse above tells us to do.
Here's a practical example: If someone hurts your feelings, you shouldn't remain upset with them for days on end. That only gives Satan the opportunity to plant seeds of bitterness.
Instead, you need to reject negative thinking and refuse to let it drain you of your peace and joy.
You must turn to God and say, "Father, I need Your strength. By faith I choose to receive Your grace so that I may forgive those who mistreated or wronged me. I ask You to bless them and help me go on with my life. In Jesus' name, amen."
As our minds are renewed with God's Word, our thinking will change and line up with Scripture. Then, day by day, godly boundaries around our thoughts will be established and reinforced. These limits will not only keep out the deceptions of the enemy, but help you live a more enjoyable, godly life.
Prayer Starter: Lord, I only want to accept the right thoughts. Alert me when the enemy brings a bad thought my way so that I can take it captive into obedience to You."
Yep... Exactly... When I needed love... I was disciplined... Yet once I sat back and thought of it I was getting love. Corrective love! God was showing me that bitter thoughts and actually believed I am not loved and accepted is not exactly what I need. When I feel that way (rejection is something I struggle with... Secretly... From many people, places and situations) it is Him I need to seek acceptance and love from. Once I am secure in Him and who he wants me to be, my thoughts will change and the boundaries of the thoughts and all that goes on around me will be forever changed!
We are programmed as fleshly humans to feel rejection, lovelessness, and yearn for affection, and please do not allow me to paint myself as a rejected, unloved, and lonely person! Because I am not! I am blessed and I know it and cannot fathom why God would love me the way he does, but I will admit that there are certain things/people/situations in my life that I have these feelings about. I have to pray everyday to keep that bitterness away. Whatever the case may be.
I said all that to say that God loves me. Others love me... Whether they show it or not, doesn't matter.... At least it shouldn't. And even if they don't... Who cares!?!? That's something THEY need to deal with God on. We have loving Father/savior/guide that we need to anchor into everyday And he will guide our thoughts. Yes there will still be bitterness, rejection, and all that other nastiness, but as we draw and stay nearer it will get easier.
Here is the verse that goes with he devotion... I needed this, God gave me this, and he gave me this blog. He told to get up outta my seat Sunday morning and go write it... Maybe just for me... Maybe for someone elSe... I dunno... But I must say I feel much better and I feel like God is pleased
With me right now.
"We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ. (2 Corinthians 10:5 MSG)"
Again I say...I am IMPERFECT... everyday I try to improve at something, give something that only God can handle to Him, or continue one of these processes and this assignment He has tasked me with is HUGE and will likely take me a long time to do... But I know as long as I am working on it... He can be pleased.
Night night,
Brandy
Monday, January 30, 2012
Another week down...
Ok so another week down in the world of becoming a nurse! I have to say I don't feel any less overwhelmed...however I must say I have sort of peace about because I know right here is where God wants me.
I am getting to spend more time in the things neglected when I was working and going to school full time. My house is cleaner and laundry gets done regularly.... Which I am soooooo thankful for. Also, as God promised the bills are getting paid and we have food! God is so good to me in this new season in my life and I want to always remember to give Him the glory... Because He deserves it!
This week a few great things happened to me... In addition to the daily provision we have been blessed with.... I purchased a new (to me) used car to get me back and forth to school! It was quite exciting to be able to just buy a car...like drive it away OWNING it! It is nothing fancy and is a 1997 but it is mine, it drives and funny thing is... My kids LOVE it! It is red and they named it "Ruby"! Funny....
Secondly, I took my first Intro to Nursing test and got an 81. This is not a terrible grade for it being my first one and me not knowing what to expect... But I hope to do better next time... Mostly b/c in the world of nursing school and 81 is a actually a "c." but thank you to my father in law who texted me and said that they do not actually print my grade on my nursing license. A reminder I shared with my classmates and they agreed...thanks Tom!!!
Also, I started a small... But one I am very thankful for...part time job watching kids a few hours a week! God is sooo good to me on that... And there is more potential income coming down the pike that I am praying about! Please pray that He reveals to me what he would like me to do..
Lastly... since I am no longer sitting on my tush all day long and snacking (which if I am honest, I did quite a bit in the years I had a desk job) I have lost 6 pounds, quit drinking soda/caffeine and have tried snacking less (oh my... I'm a snacker... This will be hard). I will continue to try to keep this up... We shall see...food is soo yummy... Hahaha
I think my kids enjoy me being home more... And I like it too... But I am also thankful that I still get to have the time outta the house at school and work... KUDOS to all you stay home moms... HIGH FIVE!!!! I am more busy not working than when I was... Hahaha
Anyways I am done bending your ear for the few peeps reading this... Have a great week...
I wanted to share my devotion from last night with you because it spoke volumes to me... It is from Ephesians 6:12
"Thankfully, our unseen God is more than capable of dealing with our unseen enemy. When we come to a deep understanding of God's unconditional love for us, we realize He will always take care of everything that concerns us.
You don't have to be afraid of your unseen enemy. Trust in God, the only One who can defeat the spiritual forces of darkness.
Prayer Starter: Lord, don't let me forget who my real enemy is, and don't let me forget that You are all-powerful. I know I can't handle everything the enemy throws my way, but You can."
Thanks to Joyce Meyer for that reminder...
Have a great week folks!
Here is a pic of "Ruby"
I am getting to spend more time in the things neglected when I was working and going to school full time. My house is cleaner and laundry gets done regularly.... Which I am soooooo thankful for. Also, as God promised the bills are getting paid and we have food! God is so good to me in this new season in my life and I want to always remember to give Him the glory... Because He deserves it!
This week a few great things happened to me... In addition to the daily provision we have been blessed with.... I purchased a new (to me) used car to get me back and forth to school! It was quite exciting to be able to just buy a car...like drive it away OWNING it! It is nothing fancy and is a 1997 but it is mine, it drives and funny thing is... My kids LOVE it! It is red and they named it "Ruby"! Funny....
Secondly, I took my first Intro to Nursing test and got an 81. This is not a terrible grade for it being my first one and me not knowing what to expect... But I hope to do better next time... Mostly b/c in the world of nursing school and 81 is a actually a "c." but thank you to my father in law who texted me and said that they do not actually print my grade on my nursing license. A reminder I shared with my classmates and they agreed...thanks Tom!!!
Also, I started a small... But one I am very thankful for...part time job watching kids a few hours a week! God is sooo good to me on that... And there is more potential income coming down the pike that I am praying about! Please pray that He reveals to me what he would like me to do..
Lastly... since I am no longer sitting on my tush all day long and snacking (which if I am honest, I did quite a bit in the years I had a desk job) I have lost 6 pounds, quit drinking soda/caffeine and have tried snacking less (oh my... I'm a snacker... This will be hard). I will continue to try to keep this up... We shall see...food is soo yummy... Hahaha
I think my kids enjoy me being home more... And I like it too... But I am also thankful that I still get to have the time outta the house at school and work... KUDOS to all you stay home moms... HIGH FIVE!!!! I am more busy not working than when I was... Hahaha
Anyways I am done bending your ear for the few peeps reading this... Have a great week...
I wanted to share my devotion from last night with you because it spoke volumes to me... It is from Ephesians 6:12
"Thankfully, our unseen God is more than capable of dealing with our unseen enemy. When we come to a deep understanding of God's unconditional love for us, we realize He will always take care of everything that concerns us.
You don't have to be afraid of your unseen enemy. Trust in God, the only One who can defeat the spiritual forces of darkness.
Prayer Starter: Lord, don't let me forget who my real enemy is, and don't let me forget that You are all-powerful. I know I can't handle everything the enemy throws my way, but You can."
Thanks to Joyce Meyer for that reminder...
Have a great week folks!
Here is a pic of "Ruby"
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
1 week down... And only a gazillion to go!
Welp folks... By the grace of God I made it thru my first week of nursing school! That week was overwhelming and exciting all at the same time. I met some wonderful young ladies I get to do this with as well as some of my already good school friends that I get to do it with!!
I had to train my "I'm used to taking classes online" brain to go in a different direction. This is real college now sister... Get ur crap together, organized, and hit the books! (now this is not to say that that is not what I was doing before...but let's just say it was a bit of a change of pace for me!)
I'm going to try to stay committed to to at least 2-3 hours of homework everyday and have already committed to extra practice hours on top of that to kick some nursing school behind!
Now please allow me to pause right and here and say that I could not do this without the grace from my heavenly daddy... But also with the support and understanding of family and friends! My husband (who
I did not mention enuf in the first blog- we have been married 12 very interesting years and I love him so.. I don't always understand him...but I love home nevertheless) has already been informed and agreed that he would be in this thing with me (no... Like literally with me...stories, tears, headaches and all) and all the while finishing his degree as well (I know what are we thinking, right!?) so thank you to you all and please keep the prayers coming!
Ok anyway...last week we learned sterile technique and just the overall ins and outs of surgical and sterile procedures! Now this week... Oh yeah... Catheters and wound care. Fun stuff!!! No really.... It was! I allowed myself to get grossed out a few times but quickly realized this will be my everyday life and I had to get used to it! Next week... Vitals! I could not e more excited. ( and not just bcuz I get to use my pretty pink stethoscope!!)
So stay tuned and keep praying for me! I am so blessed to be on this journey and to get to do it with some great new nursing friends and the support system I have! I thank the Lord everyday for allowing me this opportunity!
Also... I am in the process of applying for jobs again... I need a part time job! So prayer on that would be appreciated tooo!!
Until next time....
~B~
P.s. I will leave you with my picture of sadness this week... My oldest is growing up and her taste in clothing is maturing a bit! We took a trip to Goodwill and this is what she found... She is beautiful...but not a baby anymore....:-(
I had to train my "I'm used to taking classes online" brain to go in a different direction. This is real college now sister... Get ur crap together, organized, and hit the books! (now this is not to say that that is not what I was doing before...but let's just say it was a bit of a change of pace for me!)
I'm going to try to stay committed to to at least 2-3 hours of homework everyday and have already committed to extra practice hours on top of that to kick some nursing school behind!
Now please allow me to pause right and here and say that I could not do this without the grace from my heavenly daddy... But also with the support and understanding of family and friends! My husband (who
I did not mention enuf in the first blog- we have been married 12 very interesting years and I love him so.. I don't always understand him...but I love home nevertheless) has already been informed and agreed that he would be in this thing with me (no... Like literally with me...stories, tears, headaches and all) and all the while finishing his degree as well (I know what are we thinking, right!?) so thank you to you all and please keep the prayers coming!
Ok anyway...last week we learned sterile technique and just the overall ins and outs of surgical and sterile procedures! Now this week... Oh yeah... Catheters and wound care. Fun stuff!!! No really.... It was! I allowed myself to get grossed out a few times but quickly realized this will be my everyday life and I had to get used to it! Next week... Vitals! I could not e more excited. ( and not just bcuz I get to use my pretty pink stethoscope!!)
So stay tuned and keep praying for me! I am so blessed to be on this journey and to get to do it with some great new nursing friends and the support system I have! I thank the Lord everyday for allowing me this opportunity!
Also... I am in the process of applying for jobs again... I need a part time job! So prayer on that would be appreciated tooo!!
Until next time....
~B~
P.s. I will leave you with my picture of sadness this week... My oldest is growing up and her taste in clothing is maturing a bit! We took a trip to Goodwill and this is what she found... She is beautiful...but not a baby anymore....:-(
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Aaaaaaaaand here we go....
OK...I am gonna try this. I have spent the last hour or so reading the blogs I faithfully follow. I follow them because I love these ladies...I look up to them...I enjoy their company (even tho I don't get to spend that much time with them...I love them). They are good, Godly women and have some amazing testimonies. Now I say all that not to put them on a pedestal...but to let them know...if the happen to be reading this...that I love how they allow God to shine thru them...as imperfect as we all are! I love each of their testimonies...well what I know of it...
Annnnnyway...I said all that to say...a few of them suggested to do a blog...and tonight I figured what the heck...Ima try! What can it hurt right?
So here I go....I am mom...recently unemployed to finish the career path that my God has put me on. I have 2 beautiful girls and they are my life. Both different in their own ways..and frustrating and loving all at the same time in their own ways! They could not be more opposite...and I love it that way! I am sure you will hear much about them as they never cease to amaze, infuriate, love, accept, disobey, shock, and transform me.
Ok...so back to the blog...I will leave this entry short as I am not wanting to bore anyone who may be wanting to read my blog. I certainly don't wanna lose readers as soon as I begin by droning on...so here is a brief synopsis of why I am deciding to write this blog...
I am in school for nursing...a program in which I started out on in August of 2009 at God's nudging and me wanting to "do something better for myself and my children" (after all I have 2 VERY smart youngens who are most definitely (why can I never spell this word right???! ugh) going to need to go to college...and that ain't cheap). During the time of pre-reqs, prep courses, and all that other brain prepping that goes with waiting to actually "get in" the program, I worked in the day and went to school at night. All the while trying to figure out what the heck I was going to do when I actually got in! Notice I said trying to figure out? Ok...good...that is what this blog is about...me reminding MYSELF that HE makes the plans, calls the shots and already has my path planned out for me...I just have to seek Him!...not figure it out myself! That's all...but as a planner and expert worrier...I often forget or let the enemy deter from having the right mindset.
Ok..I digressed...sorry...anyway...back to me working days and going to school at night...In August of last year...it came!!! My acceptance letter. I was in...which meant I needed to quit my job and continue on the path God had for me...and had clearly told me He had.
On January 5, 2012 I had my VERY 1st day of work unpaid since I was 16 years old. Was I scared, yes!! Was I worried,yes!! But that day...I had a peace that even tho I was quitting my job and receiving may last paycheck...I was doing what I was supposed to do! Constantly I have to remind myself of the verse Jeremiah 29:11 ~~> "I know the plans I have for you saith the Lord...."
Now follow me as I tell you funny stories from nursing school, stories from my kids, reprimand myself for doubting Him, and just vent about something or another. I also may post a recipe or 2 or a receipe NOT to try...but we shall see....
Until next time...
~Brandy~
p.s. Any suggestions are welcomed! AND COMMENTS ARE WANTED!
Annnnnyway...I said all that to say...a few of them suggested to do a blog...and tonight I figured what the heck...Ima try! What can it hurt right?
So here I go....I am mom...recently unemployed to finish the career path that my God has put me on. I have 2 beautiful girls and they are my life. Both different in their own ways..and frustrating and loving all at the same time in their own ways! They could not be more opposite...and I love it that way! I am sure you will hear much about them as they never cease to amaze, infuriate, love, accept, disobey, shock, and transform me.
Ok...so back to the blog...I will leave this entry short as I am not wanting to bore anyone who may be wanting to read my blog. I certainly don't wanna lose readers as soon as I begin by droning on...so here is a brief synopsis of why I am deciding to write this blog...
I am in school for nursing...a program in which I started out on in August of 2009 at God's nudging and me wanting to "do something better for myself and my children" (after all I have 2 VERY smart youngens who are most definitely (why can I never spell this word right???! ugh) going to need to go to college...and that ain't cheap). During the time of pre-reqs, prep courses, and all that other brain prepping that goes with waiting to actually "get in" the program, I worked in the day and went to school at night. All the while trying to figure out what the heck I was going to do when I actually got in! Notice I said trying to figure out? Ok...good...that is what this blog is about...me reminding MYSELF that HE makes the plans, calls the shots and already has my path planned out for me...I just have to seek Him!...not figure it out myself! That's all...but as a planner and expert worrier...I often forget or let the enemy deter from having the right mindset.
Ok..I digressed...sorry...anyway...back to me working days and going to school at night...In August of last year...it came!!! My acceptance letter. I was in...which meant I needed to quit my job and continue on the path God had for me...and had clearly told me He had.
On January 5, 2012 I had my VERY 1st day of work unpaid since I was 16 years old. Was I scared, yes!! Was I worried,yes!! But that day...I had a peace that even tho I was quitting my job and receiving may last paycheck...I was doing what I was supposed to do! Constantly I have to remind myself of the verse Jeremiah 29:11 ~~> "I know the plans I have for you saith the Lord...."
Now follow me as I tell you funny stories from nursing school, stories from my kids, reprimand myself for doubting Him, and just vent about something or another. I also may post a recipe or 2 or a receipe NOT to try...but we shall see....
Until next time...
~Brandy~
p.s. Any suggestions are welcomed! AND COMMENTS ARE WANTED!
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